Chances that anyone reads this post: approximately nil.
So, here’s what’s going on with me. Several months ago, spurred on by a complete lack of interest in my current publishing career (and then further spurred on by the news that my company was sold, making my job future questionable) I began to think very seriously about My Future. This was going to be a recurring theme anyway, as I approached 30, so I sat down and gave some serious thought to what it was that I really wanted to do with my life.
The conclusion I reached was this: my life - or at least my life since about 1997 - has been primarily consumed with two things. First Thing: History. It’s my first love, and it’s what I always find myself gravitating back to. I initially got into publishing to work with history, though that got waylaid along the way. I have intensely strong opinions about the way the study of history should be approached, and I think a very clear knowledge - gathered over the years through tons of reading, debate, and internalized philosophizing - of how history works. What I’ve always been looking for is a way to translate that into action, and into some form of a career; it became pretty patently obvious to me a few years ago that I was too social, too flaky, and too impatient for a PhD, so the purity of academic history was out. I had previously tried the non-profit thing for a while, but it’s fairly hard to move forward in the non-profit world without directly relevant experience unless you’re in fundraising, to which I’m allergic. Publishing initially seemed like a good way to reconcile my love of academic history with a more structured environment, but I slowly came to realize that much of publishing is far less about the content than it is about the bottom line, and as anyone who has seen me attempt to comprehend money can attest, the bottom line is not anything I generally obsess over (to my own detriment, I might add). All of that, of course, leads me to…
The Second Thing: Education. In some fairly obvious ways, spending a boatload of time thinking about history leads naturally to spending a boatload of time thinking about education. Most of us form our opinions of history in school, for better or for worse (usually for worse). Education is also a major battlefield for my favored field in history, identity; how events or peoples or ideas are depicted in the education system is a constant tug of war. My first job out of college was for an education non-profit in Brookline that specialized in history education, focused around ideas of identity, and it’s still the best job I’ve ever had - teaching, and especially teaching high school, forces you to think about ways to make history both accessible and rigorous, the former being a primary complaint I have about most history. History should be fun - these are, at their core, stories, and their sweep is extraordinary. History is exploration too - there’s never a right answer, and investigating all the ways people have constructed and reconstructed history is the best detective job in the world. Students do not get enough of that, buried under the weight of dates, battles, dry portraits, and treaties with Dutch names. That job opened my eyes to the daily struggle of history teachers to make their material exciting, relevant, and enlightening.
So, when I finally sat down and thought about it (remember when I did that, two incredibly meandering paragraphs ago?) it became pretty obvious what I should do, and I was forced to laugh at myself for not thinking about it earlier. I should be a history teacher.
So, for the last few months, I’ve been working toward that goal. This past Friday, I got the results from my MTEL (Massachusetts Test for Educator Licensure) and passed with flying colors. I’ve been taking courses at Simmons College toward a second MA, this time in Education, and will enroll there full-time within the next month. In September, I’ll begin an in-school internship, location TBD. It has been a tremendous amount of work, but it’s also been fairly exhilarating, and I can’t wait for the next step.
So, what does that mean for this little corner of the web? For one, it means the time I can devote to massive spreadsheets has been severely curtailed. Honestly, baseball has been several rungs down the ladder for me this year; I’ve probably watched just two or three of this year’s games end to end, and have missed several entirely. I gave up my Opening Day ticket because I had class. Priorities have shifted.
That doesn’t mean I want to give up writing, and it probably doesn’t mean I want to give up writing about baseball. It just means that this site fulfilled its usefulness as a Sox blog, and now it’s time to transition it to other things. I don’t want to change sites or anything, just repurpose what I already have.
So, if by some miracle you’re still checking this space, keep doing so. I’m going to try to write semi-frequently. Maybe it will be about baseball; more likely it will be about teaching, or history. Or teaching history. Maybe it will even be interesting.